Is this 9 or 10? I dunno

So, a couple days ago, I was sooo ready to write a blog. But now, I forget what I was going to blog about and I'm just gonna wing it... sorry! I bet the other one would have been pretty good too. Oh wait, I remember.


^Ignore.

SO, after church on Sunday, Storm, Mr. Belford (our Ornithology teacher) and myself had a little chat. The chat itself isn't exactly relevant, but when I figured out after wards. Well, I guess it was during. Any-who, we were talking about how you get this feeling when God is prompting you to do something. It's like, you don't know how to, and you might not think that you should, but you just some how know that it's what you should do--and if like some people, have to do.

Now, this reminds me of the river of life that flows out of people (ya know, that metaphor used in the bible). But, it's like this river sweeps up other people. It spreads as more people follow that 'God Instinct' that they get, which has the catalyst of other people following it.. and letting it flow. It's so complicated, and yet immensely simple if people let it be. That river that flows out of you can grow and grow... it can turn into a lake, a sea, an entire ocean.

I think this was in my dad's message on Sunday too, but some people feel like they've been ripped off when they do a good deed and other people profit. My dad used the specific example of a man that converted someone, then the convert goes out and save like an entire community. The original dude is all like 'Wait, God, what about me? I've been with you since I was bloody nine! I only got to save one person?' But he's really missing the point. He DID save all those people, everyone that was saved before him had a hand in saving those people... it's like the river. It can be a river, yeah, but it keeps growing.

It's kind of cool. Someday, we'll all be living in it...

No. Seven: To my friends and family--and friends of family, and family of friends, and friends of friends of family.....

Graduation. Uh. It was wonderful, and horrible. All these people will be gone! It's like seventh grade all over again. While Mr. Morse was giving his speech, I was enthralled, well, up until the point when my thought process started straying from his. The more I thought about my future, the more upset I got. All these people in my life that I love so much, they'd all move on. And even if some of them stayed in my life, it would never be the same. It's not like it would end when I graduated high school either. College would be the same, then adulthood. I was socially doomed. But, there was still a bit of hope. It took me a second to figure this out.

What is it that I love about these people? The constant growth and learning around them--not just the teachers, but the students as well... it was outstandingly unique. Inspiring even. Then it clicked. It was God's influence in their lives. It was the amazing faith these people had and shared. Together, we were so strong--are so strong. Now to my point. Even when these people are gone, and even though I'll still miss them, the greatest thing about them will always remain, because they got it from Him who will always be with me. I don't want to sound cheesy, but seriously, God will always be with me--and you. I've heard it before, but it hadn't occurred to me quite like this. He's the only constant, the only thing you can really trust wholeheartedly. Wow, I'm in awe. Maybe everyone has figured this out already and I'm just behind a bit, but I really feel like I don't have to worry anymore about it.

I'm gonna go put my life is good t-shirt on. =)